I'm really unhappy with my life right now. Luck would have it that almost 2 years to the day that shit fell apart for me and put me in a funk for 8 months, it happens again.
I don't know what it is about putting everything you've got into something that makes it more likely to crash and burn, but for some reason that seems to be the case for me. Makes me scared to follow through on my personal project.
I'd been holding off on writing anything, but to be honest, I can't sit here any longer and pretend things are alright. I need to make them alright.
You guys have always backed me up when I needed it, whether things were great, shitty, or somewhere in between and I thank you dearly for it. I'm not asking for your sympathy, but let's say I wouldn't mind a pick me up right now if you've got one.
Otherwise, I might have to resort to some sort of poetry or prose like last time, and I think we're all better off without that. I need to reboot, but first I need the courage to hit the button. I more or less just needed to get things out in the open somehow...
Anyway, thanks for being here guys, and take care. You're the best.
Thing is, when you put so much into something that it almost hurts, the risk goes up exponentially. Sometimes it doesn't pay off. However when it does, the rewards are absolutely amazing and worth all of the hell you've been through. You've been through a lot of shit, and you yourself have also grown exponentially artistically and more importantly, emotionally. Nothing can take that from you.
Prooobably not high on the 'most likely to make you giggle' list, but hopefully there's some nachos for thought in there somewhere. Rock on with your projects, unstoppable you.
Cheers!
Cheers!
If you are into any self development stuff at all, or even have the slightest interest, I could point you in the direction of stuff that has helped me.
Whenever the apocalypse would descend upon my world (and man, does it do so quite often lately!), one of my best friends would only have one line to comfort me, in a deadpan voice: "Life is like a poodle's ass-hairs... Short and shitty...". It works for me every time - can't hold on a straight face for more that 3 seconds after I've heard that line.
Hold on to the rocking boat and continue to steer it your way - it WILL move in the desired direction, no doubts there.
Cheers and take care!